Okay... So my sister is leaving for college.  We drove ten hours down to Pittsburgh, PA to bring her here.  We got here this morning, and we aren't leaving until Thursday.  And I've already cried.  I don't know what my problem is. I didn't ever think it would ve this hard. I was fiiiine all the way down. I was fiiine in her dorm helping her unpack.  I was fiiiine until we left to go to the hotel. That part sucked.  Me and my mom were both crying, and I felt like an idiot.  I don't know what I'm going to do without her. I know we fight like craaazy, but I do, and always will, love her.  She is probably one of the most important people in my life.  I won't get to see her again until November.  She gets a week for Thanksgiving.  But it's just going to be really weird not having her around, and being an only child for a while.  

I'm glad she is leaving, because I get the bathroom to myself. 
I'm glad she is leaving because I get her clothes that she isn't taking with her.
I'm glad she is leaving, because she gets to experience things outside of smallish Stonington, CT.


I'm mad she is leaving because I'm going to get blamed for everything at home.
I'm mad she is leaving because I don't have anyone to drive me to school in the mornings, and home in the afternoon.
I'm mad she is leaving because I won't have anyone to sing along with in the car.
I'm mad she is leaving because she is the only person, other than my parents, that I see every single day.
I'm mad she is leaving because I won't have anyone to help me with my homework when I get stuck.
I'm mad she is leaving because I won't have anyone to talk to late at night, when its just the both of us watching TV.
I'm mad she is leaving because I won't have anything or anyone to model myself after.
I'm mad she is leaving because I am going to miss her.


See...? Wayy more mads than glads =[


This sucks. It absoutely sucks.